GUILT AND HEARTBREAK

Guilt is for me....
The paranoia I have been feeling was ridiculous.. After that mahjong and poker night, I know that nothing will ever go on between them.. and even if there were to be one, it wont happen as long as he's mine..so london's on!! Btw, I won about 15bucks even after covering Kenrick's bankruptcy! haha

Heartbreak is for my dear cousin, Mimi...
Technically speaking, she wasnt really heartbroken.. I believe she felt more angry and disappointed with her dickhead boyfriend. During our intense 10 minutes MSN chat, she told me she deduced where the term Dickhead comes from. Itz from guys like Fitch (ASSHOLE!) who thinks with their dicks more than their brain and hence, DICKHEAD!

Apparently, he's been cheating on her since 2007 when WE all went to Shenzhen and Guangzhou! Dude, we even stayed at his place! mistake mistake! Worse thing is none of her friends told her even though they knew itz been ongoing for a while! Dude, itz been ongoing for 2 fucking years~yep "great" friends~ and the one guy I thought was alright, was actually his accomplice! They went to find prostitutes and go to stripclubs.. DICKHEADS~ The more I think about it, the more I feel sad about guys in general. If only, they are like girls who think with brains so much more~ sad sad SAD! It finally occurs to me the reason why he was always OK with Mimi going to LA.. it was so that he can run along and fuck the bitch (ex-gf) in Leeds! oh dear~ But oh well, I just hope shes nt that upset, I mean I mentioned to her that HK and China men are crap lovers! like really crap~

For once, Ill be the one pimping her out! Well, more like Kenrick pimping her out actually, I dont have that many guy friends.. And, hopefully shes no longer mesmerised by useless Bboys, HipHop dancers alike~~

BEAUTY AND DICKHEAD

INSECURITIES

Insecurities is a bitch! Taking off my blog address from FB right now~ urgh, just need to get it out my chest..

the stupid pills hav been making me super paranoid and pissy AND BITCHY! firstly, it ticked me off fucking bad that he flirted with the girl right in front of me.. second,he admitted to brandon that he was indeed INTRIGUED by her! sure~whatever really! i know hes flirty bt hey, theres a limit.. and to not actually realise it... i really dont know what to say~i had to actually blow up and hav brandon support my statement! and now, hes been texting her! i mean, he always says that I should b more tactful and sensitive.. yea right, look whos talking! fuck it, im nt gonna b miss nice lady.. ill be damn right straightforward and tell him if im nt happy..

and what abt him nv ever wanting to date her coz he'll jeopradise his friendshp with jo and his rship with me.. so does that mean that he'll down right fuck her otherwise.. and that means she really is not a very nice person! i mean, i will NEVER ever text any of a friend'f bf, let alone flirt w him in frnt of her! and exchange number somemore~i mean, go and text jo or smth! urgh!

i really dont kow if itz just me, or is it just the pills, or am i not good to b in a rship? i dont know... let faith take itz course i guess~well, i think shes so much like mi2~she just doesnt know whats the limit of flirting.. i can pretty much understand how fitch feels~except he prob doesnt know most of what shes done behind his back~and this is why theyre not tog anymore~ oh well~

maybe being one another's fling was the right move.. my badd! maybe hes just nt ready to giv all the flirting up~mayb im nt ready to giv all my crap either~nvm, ill let nature takes itz course and hope for the best!

PS: Marley and me was a damn awesome movie.. sad saddd movie~and i just loveee this song, after my all time fav non-disney cartoon, The Nutcracker Prince..Link to Part 1 of the movie=)